SHUT UP
maybe it is not 100% your fault, maybe im pushing you away to hard. im so much sorry i just want to drag you out from this black & blue. it's hard to breathe to seeing you in this kind of way, sorry it's hurts me so much. yeah maybe you're right, the distance doesnt matter but i still feel's like you're so far away, i dont know it's been like a gap or something big like a boundries in the middle of us now. im sorry i know this is to much but that's what i've feel about us.
Tomorrow
I promise to stop loving you tomorrow. Today can be your last day in my arms again. I promise to stop thinking of you constantly and wishing i could wake up every morning next to you. Darling, yes it's true, but today can we pretend it's not too late?
I promise to stop dreaming 'bout you, promise to stop waiting for your calls 'cause i. don't wanna care at all. But maybe just tonight we should forget about what's right one last time because i...
conflict
Human = challenging game of temptation for eternal souls. Everyone wins, but it takes longer for some of us, because whether we want to admit it or not, we love the challenge. We forget when we're human how peaceful it is in between. When we're in between, we want to learn more lessons from the game. There are plenty of lessons, because by the grace of our own energy, we create. Thankfully, we're only in human form for a short period of time. Otherwise our souls would be "up all night drinking coffee" forever! Even souls need a rest.
Unsolicited
The woman stepped from the bath and dried her hair and body with a towel. She felt each worn board beneath her feet as she walked to the front door. The sun reflected off the dirt all around her home in the desert, temporarily blinding her. A gentle breeze entered the house and refreshed her clean, pale skin. Two wavering specs appeared over the horizon and were headed in her direction. She stepped all the way out onto the front poarch and waited - her arms crossed over her chest, holding up the towel.
The two men rode their horses at a trot toward the house. They could see a well out front, and the blonde-haired man swore he could smell the water just waiting for them. "Yes, but lookee here," interjected the red-haired man, chewing the end of a twig he'd picked up at the last town - two days ago. There on the poarch of that house stood a ghostly woman. Her hair and eyes were dark and serious, but her skin was white as a sheet. "Where you reckon her old man be?" he asked the blonde man. "Le's find out," the other replied. As they neared, she never moved, and the two began to wonder in earnest if she were one of those manequins they'd seen in the taylor's window back east. They stopped the horses not ten feet from the poarch steps, and the red-head dismounted and walked slowly toward her. She watched him in a waiting way. She didn't smile or make a peep. She had no expression whatsoever, but looked him straight in the eye. He smiled and tipped his hat, "Afternoon." She was still. "Are you deaf? Can you hear what I'm saying to you?" Her left eyebrow rose a fraction of a centimeter. "Where your old man?" No response. He turned to his friend and laughed, then said, "Look like we got more than just water here, Buford. Look like we got some sugar too!" The blonde man smiled, "Weeeelll, alright then," and tipped his hat to her. Red-head turned back to her with his scruffy, yellow-toothed grin, and he moved his right arm toward her left shoulder. Like a cobra, her right arm shot toward him, and her open hand slammed into his adams apple, crushing his throaght. She casually put her arm back over the other where it had been before and continued to watch red-head as he gagged and coughed and his face turned from red to purple and finally he sank to his knees and then forward on his face and gagged no more. She turned her eyes to blonde-head, who had stopped his dismount and was still frozen standing with one foot in the stirrup and the other draped over his horse's back. He fully mounted and began to slowly turn away from the cabin. Her hand shot out again and she snapped her fingers loudly once. He turned back to her, and as she held his eyes she pointed her finger down at red-head. With the heal of her foot, she kicked his hip and he rolled down the poarch steps and into the dust. She waited patiently while blonde-head dragged his friend up and over his horse and mounted it, turned and rode away forever. She looked at the remaining horse for a moment, then walked back inside, leaving the door open to catch the breeze.
The next morning when the sheriff arrived, her door was still open. She was sitting at the table in a white cotton frock and bare feet so she could feel the coolness of the floor. She'd slept with rags tied in her hair and now her hair was soft and wavy. Small strands would tickle her cheeks in the breeze. She sipped her coffee and watched the sheriff walk up the steps and remove his hat.
"Naoma, you know there's a horse out here?"
She cocked her head and smiled with half her mouth, "Yeah, I know."
"What'd you do? Why'd you kill that man, Naoma?"
"He was trespassing, John."
The sheriff did not reply. He only shook his head slowly with a resigned look about him.
"You can have that horse if you want, John. Seems I get more visitors lately. I don't need him. Anything I need I guess I can get off one of these people that come around here. I can't feed a horse." She paused. "You hungry?"
"I could eat."
"Ok, then."
The two men rode their horses at a trot toward the house. They could see a well out front, and the blonde-haired man swore he could smell the water just waiting for them. "Yes, but lookee here," interjected the red-haired man, chewing the end of a twig he'd picked up at the last town - two days ago. There on the poarch of that house stood a ghostly woman. Her hair and eyes were dark and serious, but her skin was white as a sheet. "Where you reckon her old man be?" he asked the blonde man. "Le's find out," the other replied. As they neared, she never moved, and the two began to wonder in earnest if she were one of those manequins they'd seen in the taylor's window back east. They stopped the horses not ten feet from the poarch steps, and the red-head dismounted and walked slowly toward her. She watched him in a waiting way. She didn't smile or make a peep. She had no expression whatsoever, but looked him straight in the eye. He smiled and tipped his hat, "Afternoon." She was still. "Are you deaf? Can you hear what I'm saying to you?" Her left eyebrow rose a fraction of a centimeter. "Where your old man?" No response. He turned to his friend and laughed, then said, "Look like we got more than just water here, Buford. Look like we got some sugar too!" The blonde man smiled, "Weeeelll, alright then," and tipped his hat to her. Red-head turned back to her with his scruffy, yellow-toothed grin, and he moved his right arm toward her left shoulder. Like a cobra, her right arm shot toward him, and her open hand slammed into his adams apple, crushing his throaght. She casually put her arm back over the other where it had been before and continued to watch red-head as he gagged and coughed and his face turned from red to purple and finally he sank to his knees and then forward on his face and gagged no more. She turned her eyes to blonde-head, who had stopped his dismount and was still frozen standing with one foot in the stirrup and the other draped over his horse's back. He fully mounted and began to slowly turn away from the cabin. Her hand shot out again and she snapped her fingers loudly once. He turned back to her, and as she held his eyes she pointed her finger down at red-head. With the heal of her foot, she kicked his hip and he rolled down the poarch steps and into the dust. She waited patiently while blonde-head dragged his friend up and over his horse and mounted it, turned and rode away forever. She looked at the remaining horse for a moment, then walked back inside, leaving the door open to catch the breeze.
The next morning when the sheriff arrived, her door was still open. She was sitting at the table in a white cotton frock and bare feet so she could feel the coolness of the floor. She'd slept with rags tied in her hair and now her hair was soft and wavy. Small strands would tickle her cheeks in the breeze. She sipped her coffee and watched the sheriff walk up the steps and remove his hat.
"Naoma, you know there's a horse out here?"
She cocked her head and smiled with half her mouth, "Yeah, I know."
"What'd you do? Why'd you kill that man, Naoma?"
"He was trespassing, John."
The sheriff did not reply. He only shook his head slowly with a resigned look about him.
"You can have that horse if you want, John. Seems I get more visitors lately. I don't need him. Anything I need I guess I can get off one of these people that come around here. I can't feed a horse." She paused. "You hungry?"
"I could eat."
"Ok, then."
MEMORIA JULY 2008
tina (:: baby
kimmy (:: hey baby
kimmy (:: imy
tina (:: imyt
tina (:: ilysm
kimmy (:: miss you like hell here
kimmy (:: im waiting for you whole day long
tina (:: sorry baby
tina (::
kimmy (:: its okay
tina (:: sorry again syg
tina (:: i love you
tina (:: mwahh !@#$%^& *ditapis*
tina (:: i'll keep your promise bby
kimmy (:: loveyou <33 !@#$%^& *ditapis*
tina (:: omg syg
tina (:: i love you forever
kimmy (:: i love you tina
tina (:: i love you too kimey
tina (:: mwahhh
tina (:: you're mine now
tina (:: remember that
kimmy (:: ngeee
tina (:: yeahh im so into you
kimmy (:: amirul hakimi
tina (:: qistina qaidah
tina (:: ;')
kimmy (: sayang you
tina (:: i sayaaaaaaaaaang you juga dear
tina (:: syg da lame on ?
kimmy (: lama jugak kot, hmm
tina (:: sorry yea my dear
tina (:: you're mine
tina (:: always and forever
kimmy (:: ye baby
kimmy (:: you pegi mane je hari nih?
tina (:: pegi pavillion
tina (:: jalan2
tina (:: dgn fara
kimmy (:: ouh
kimmy (:: bby, u buat ape jek tuh?
tina (:: tgah dengar lagu
tina (:: you ?
kimmy (:: takde buat pape
tina (:: dah dinner ?
kimmy (:: belum
tina (:: alaaa nape xmkn lg ?
tina (:: pegi la mkn b please
kimmy (:: kejap lagi boleh?
tina (:: now please baby
tina (:: i tunggu you mkn dlu okay baby
kimmy (:: its done'
tina (:: u mkn ape syg ?
kimmy (:: makan nasi goreng je, tapau kat kedai
tina (:: huhu
tina (:: janji u mkn
tina (:: you xmkn i risau
kimmy (:: sorrieee bubuuu
tina (:: syg you hunn
kimmy (:: bukti? haha
tina (:: dtg meet i
kimmy (:: then?
tina (:: kiss you hug you
tina (:: mcm2 laa
kimmy (:: mana boleh
kimmy (:: grrrr
tina (:: kenapa ? ;(
kimmy (:: mane boleh tak buat
kimmy (:: hahaha
tina (:: wekk
tina (:: hahaha
tina (:: comel
tina (:: <33
tina (:: mwaahh
***************
*okay, next ni serious sikit and it's not for you peeps to read, thank you
kimmy (:: hey baby
kimmy (:: imy
tina (:: imyt
tina (:: ilysm
kimmy (:: miss you like hell here
kimmy (:: im waiting for you whole day long
tina (:: sorry baby
tina (::
kimmy (:: its okay
tina (:: sorry again syg
tina (:: i love you
tina (:: mwahh !@#$%^& *ditapis*
tina (:: i'll keep your promise bby
kimmy (:: loveyou <33 !@#$%^& *ditapis*
tina (:: omg syg
tina (:: i love you forever
kimmy (:: i love you tina
tina (:: i love you too kimey
tina (:: mwahhh
tina (:: you're mine now
tina (:: remember that
kimmy (:: ngeee
tina (:: yeahh im so into you
kimmy (:: amirul hakimi
tina (:: qistina qaidah
tina (:: ;')
kimmy (: sayang you
tina (:: i sayaaaaaaaaaang you juga dear
tina (:: syg da lame on ?
kimmy (: lama jugak kot, hmm
tina (:: sorry yea my dear
tina (:: you're mine
tina (:: always and forever
kimmy (:: ye baby
kimmy (:: you pegi mane je hari nih?
tina (:: pegi pavillion
tina (:: jalan2
tina (:: dgn fara
kimmy (:: ouh
kimmy (:: bby, u buat ape jek tuh?
tina (:: tgah dengar lagu
tina (:: you ?
kimmy (:: takde buat pape
tina (:: dah dinner ?
kimmy (:: belum
tina (:: alaaa nape xmkn lg ?
tina (:: pegi la mkn b please
kimmy (:: kejap lagi boleh?
tina (:: now please baby
tina (:: i tunggu you mkn dlu okay baby
kimmy (:: its done'
tina (:: u mkn ape syg ?
kimmy (:: makan nasi goreng je, tapau kat kedai
tina (:: huhu
tina (:: janji u mkn
tina (:: you xmkn i risau
kimmy (:: sorrieee bubuuu
tina (:: syg you hunn
kimmy (:: bukti? haha
tina (:: dtg meet i
kimmy (:: then?
tina (:: kiss you hug you
tina (:: mcm2 laa
kimmy (:: mana boleh
kimmy (:: grrrr
tina (:: kenapa ? ;(
kimmy (:: mane boleh tak buat
kimmy (:: hahaha
tina (:: wekk
tina (:: hahaha
tina (:: comel
tina (:: <33
tina (:: mwaahh
***************
*okay, next ni serious sikit and it's not for you peeps to read, thank you
Tuesday Morning :)
there is something that seems completely missing right now, fuck dont ask me why cause i dont even know why i feel's this kind of way. maybe hmm, maybe im still sleepy right now yeah why? good question peeps, ask my wife about this. i've already got my breakfast and Dina im sorry about last night okay? i didnt mean to left you out alone. Mukmin, yeah sorry i dont have a time for the next week jamm session practice, sorry bro. to cdnaz, thanks for the riffs videos thank you so goddamn much bro, it help me working on getting my touch back. for nizam, im sorry i cant be there yesterday and im so much sorry. for who ever that mad at me yesterday im sorry okay? i didnt mean it okay?
well i guess im not good in saying and showing all of you my sorry but please i hope that i've got forgiveness and mercy from all of you peeps. maybe im not a good friends but please remember peeps, i've got a feelings to, i've got my own problems to. thank you again, hell out.
well i guess im not good in saying and showing all of you my sorry but please i hope that i've got forgiveness and mercy from all of you peeps. maybe im not a good friends but please remember peeps, i've got a feelings to, i've got my own problems to. thank you again, hell out.
DINAHASBULLAH
Whoot whoot, thanks haha, you're the best
Yeah it's been a while right whoot whoot? Hahaha
Ofcourse i miss you too, more than you do, hahaha
Remember your promises, MY LAKSA JOHOR! Hahahaha
You Watch Me Bleed
The silence keeps it easy, keeps you safe for the moment. As you're walking away your foot steps get louder. All you needed was time, but now time will destroy us. It will all be over, and here we are, we're stuck inside this salted earth together. You'll pierce my lungs, my limbs go numb as my colors fade out. I gave you everything to die with a smile and all you wanted was to live for a while. You took everything but it left you empty, you can't replace her, you can't.
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